I’ll be straight up honest—I have no idea what I’m doing. Not with this blog. I mean, in life. I am literally walking through life trying to figure things out. Every. Single. Day. This is hard for me to admit because when I was 18 and 24 and 28, I legitimately thought “I got this” when it came to life. I had everything planned out—and guess what?! Everything was going exactly according to plan! Ahhh, isn’t it so nice when that happens?
But then I realized that the plan I had when I was 18 and 24 and even at 28 was not making me happy. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t depressed or terribly unhappy but I just knew things weren’t right.
It’s as simple as that. I had everything I could have asked for—a husband, two kids, a good job, a home, family close by. I mean, geez, Lauren, it seems like you got it all, what’s the problem?!?!
So, before I go any further, let me introduce myself. My name is Lauren. I live on Long Island. I have two children- 3.5 year-old Ethan and 1.5 year-old Alexandra (aka Alex, aka Chicken, aka Chickie, aka Chickie Chickie Nug Nug, you get the idea). If you follow me on social media you know that I’m into fitness, food and funnies. I love to laugh (even at my own expense, even if my face gets beet red). I love to be around people and I totally vibe off other peoples’ energy. I’m not always happy and bubbly but I do my best to put a smile on every day. I can be judgmental and witchy with a capital B at times (which I’m working on). And I find one my greatest joy is making people smile. I also get a high when someone sends me a message and asks me for advice on working out, their diet, or that I inspired them to get moving again. And most recently I’ve been excited about sharing my story. Not because my story is so wonderful but because in sharing my story, I hope to give others the confidence to share their’s.
One of my favorite quotes is from John Churton Collins- “If we knew each other’s secrets, what comforts we should find.”
The minute I heard this quote (on Criminal Minds, if you’re wondering) it stuck. I’ve always been a super private person. I never had any issue talking to other people about THEIR problems, but I wouldn’t be so quick to share my own “stuff.” As I’ve gotten older, I realized that I’m not only doing myself a disservice, I’m doing my friends and family a disservice as well. No one- your family, friends, spouse, partner, co-workers, etc. can truly understand who you are unless you’re willing to become vulnerable and let people in. Only through letting people get to know who we really are, can we develop a deeper appreciation and understanding for all the people that we cross paths with throughout our lives.
For me, this realization has been life changing. Only over the past couple of years I have finally become more comfortable with who I am. Don’t get me wrong, I still have fears and insecurities… but I’ve worked through SO MUCH these last couple of years and I’m finally starting to feel like I can be my true self. And it’s incredibly freeing.
That being said, fitness, exercise, running, and just generally being active have been the trigger for a lot of my changes. I’ve learned so much from my days of running high school track to running half marathons to lifting heavy weights. Things I do during my workouts, I apply to situations and problems that I’m experiencing in my life. And most of my epiphanies come either during or right after my workout when my muscles and brain are highly stimulated. It’s never been about looking a certain way. It’s been about finding a way to take control of my life, finding ways to change my thoughts, actions, re-actions and everyday behaviors. It’s about feeling confident and finding my true self.
photo cred: motivationalping.com
So I’m going to share my story through the lens of my “fit life.” Some of it’s going to be hard to talk about, some of it’s going to be light and fluffy and most of it will be somewhere in between. I’m super excited about this new part of my journey and I hope you are too!
I appreciate your feedback and any questions or comments you have. 😉